Kreep on Katrin

I am invested.

I would never be able to hurt someone like you. 

of all the things i never expected

Oh hi Tumblr, I really honestly have not forgotten about you. I haven’t really been in the bloggin mood! but a lot has happened, yes? Yes. Since my birthday? oh my birthday…the holidays came and went. Thankgod. Iv never been one for holidays, but sometimes family time is more needed than I think. Cumulus had their one year winter warmup event. It was rad because I’m super glad to see the EDM culture grow, sold out Agora rules. over 2,000? That works for me. However, I cannot take constant wubs for hours on end. come on boys, mix it up. Give it another solid year, wubs will be on the back burner, hello moombah? don’t think moombah will ever reach the hype of wubs but it can come close. but the event was still a good night out and worth the memories, thats why we live, right? for the memories? Thats my reasoning. okay, new years? OMG PITTSBURGH. everything said and done, our group of 6 had fun. the drive wasn’t bad, the hotel was silly, the hot tub was much needed, the walk to target was cold, the people in pittsburgh rub me the wrong way, the event was hyped up way pass what it actually turned out to be, totally misleading, but all that junk doesn’t phase me, I’m there for the music. i don’t care if i had to stand outside, i wanna feel those beats, and take me back a few years back….there were 2 rooms, a huge one, then an offside room which is where i spent my time at. hard style and hardcore. I JUST ABOUT DIED. that music gets to me <3. pitt doesn’t have the vibes that other parties do, they just seem shady. parties don’t have vibes like they use to anyways, except for kandi kid raves…must find another one soon! but new years was fun, everyone had fun despite the tiny ups and downs of finding a way to the venue and being cold -_- all that is lil stuff. 

Highlight of all this : he told me to meet him at the back on the dance floor exactly at midnight at this rave in pittsburgh new years eve. hearts racing. i continue to dance to uk hardcore and hard style in the 2nd room. its 11:59 i walk around the corner to meet him, and there lay a huge heart on the floor constructed of glow stixs of multiple colors. in the center of the heart was an LED rose. my heart dropped. i sat down next to him and just was in aww. the countdown began and midnight came, along with a kiss, from my now…boyfriend <3 everything else was a blur, I was so focused on him, I could not even recall the music being played. i’ll never forget that.

oh human kind ….

I have a post saved. on my mac. so ill have to upload that later. but for now : ugh. I really have lost everything I ever had  entrusted into humans. it boggles my mind how some people could just be so into themselves. finally taking a stand here, on my part at least. I am going back into hiding. meaning, I am no longer sharing my thoughts and secrets and all that fun life stuff with most people anymore or what doing, purchasing, ideas, goals, that I have. nah, because someone always has somethng really mean to say about anything want to do or accomplish. they always think they are better and blah blah blah. people should start to look past own two shoes and loook beyond. As for my close friends, you know ill always share my thoughts with you, as you do to me. just everyone on the outside, goodbye.

rant : /

First off, it would mean wonders to me, to finally graduate from skating. I need to pass my MIF tests and its all gold. however, I need a coach to do so, the level at entirly the easiest. So just say that my original coach moved to Boston. true story. iv been coachless since, with just fill-ins to keep up with my level. was finally set up with one and she has yet to get back to me, its been almost a month.  its a let down, hey! offerring you money, and no sass! Y U COACH ME?! probably bad at replying at emails. would only figure, if you have the brains to be an accomplished figure skater, which is one hell of an achievment, I wonder why you cannot responde back on an email. baffling. thinking of going with coach choice number 2, whom originally wanted because of her sweet choreo skillz!  

End rant.

I feel,

so content with you. how amazing that feeling is.

^_^

I got my ciel cosplay dress today. because I love to dress up. its pink and its big and beautiful. of course its not finished, needs alot of work done, however, im super excited that it finally came! also, got my mood hoop today and me and it bonded <3 its pure love. dance lucid was fun. it was a great time, loki showed up. I love that kid.

So,emotions can be such a beautiful thing. Literally, The first time in my life… My appatite is differnt, my sleeping patterns are different, my thought process differs. everyday im in awh. iv never been one of those mushy love girls that get all chingy, ew, never. but you can totally tell when something inside you gives you that gut check of like, HELLO? this guy is for you. go for him. im all smiles. i cant explain any of this, almost like these bizzare light type things i come across in my dreams.

please, if this isnt real, then dont wake me up…

online shopping will be the death of me

4 purchases 600$, epic win. cyber mondays get the best of me. and now Im heading out for more shopping, to get my mind off everything. My grandma passed away and all this funeral talk and such is just…sad. she was such a wonderful women, i hate to see her go. when someone passes, it hurts everyone around them, it KILLS me to see my mom cry, its so awful. I know everything will be okay though.

OH tumblr, how iv missed you.

Dont you love when unexpected things happen,…for the better? pretty much how my weekend ruled out to be. Friday I went to the chamber with a friend, to dance. thats ALL I ever want to do, is dance. and wear pink. Saturday me and my friends ventured out to Youngstown for turkey BASSter, I have to say the event was put together well, good vibes and no shadyness. IT WAS A GREAT TIME! the venue was beautiful, esp for a “rave”. fancy fancy. they had 2 levels, the lights were sweet, they had my favorite green lazer machine, OONTZ OONTZ! hmm, I chucked a glow stick at someone. danced. talked to glenn freaking wilson, the coolest promoter to come out of PA. so we are so helping each with our events. had like a  flippin meet and great/i love you moment in the girls bathroom.(hahahahahahhahahahahahaa!) danced. ran into fellow ravers, AND…..celebrated a friends birthday. hardy har harr, I shall never look at birthdays the same again. hehe! I spent the night at my friends house and ended up having this heart to heart conversation on the bathroom floor. how sweet. I was feeling sick :/ but as I got my mind off of things and started to just chill and talk, I ended up feeling much better. and, such. That whole day, I really didnt want it to end, it was such a wonderful lazy day put me at ease. I never chill out, thats why my dad says i can be high strung sometimes, like i never stop, ever, its always GO GO GO GO. so that was good for me. REALLY good for me. Im so happy. ALWAYS AM! but, yeah.

getting things done.

like 90% done with cosplay, BOTH of them :] so excited! turned out great.

booked hotel for ohayocon.

paid all my bills.

now I have to go finish everything else Im about to be getting done. yay. this feels good.

BASS DOWN LOW

Let me just start out by saying, this was one of the BEST event/rave/ragers/edm/partys I have ever been too. I did NOT expect that at all. I figured it was going to be some like “eh, decent” event in cleveland, WRONG. holy potatoes. and the best thing to ever become of that night? DICKSTEP MIXED IN WITH UK HAPPY HARDCORE!! seriously. it was so epic! who does that? your taking 2 whacked out generes and mixing them together? well, you did a fantastic job. made my face melt right off me. Matt let me barrow his glow gloves the whole time, sigh, so nice of him. we danced so hard for the longest time. ran into liberty george, i love that man, last time i saw him was at cleveland pride. good to see him back in the game again. sara let me barrow her LED hula hoop, im hooked. those things are wicked! so guess whos buying one today? this guy. da beep beep was there! later on in the night, we had this HUGE cuddle puddle right on the floor, with him, micah, matt and then more joined, awe, such love. some dood was shooting vex shots in everyones faces, i denied it though. im a freak of nature. they had these performers there….was bizzarrre. they had to stilt walkers. it was so freaking awesome! one girl was like  a fairy and the other dood was like this epic forest shiny LED thing. what. kashdkjahsd. they had jugglers, juggling these LED GLOW BALLS! to watch it, looked so awesome, like floating balls of epicness. then they had another performer in which he was all wired with lights and had this HUGE, and i do mean huge stick covered in lights, it almost looked like a weapon of some sort. iv never seen things like that before at any rave, so i was taken back by it and got totally sucked in. love it. the lights were insane, there was so much room to run around and roam. it was just such a great time and experience, i never wanted to leave, ever. more parties should be thrown like that. and i loved how the event was called bass down low, the bass…..got…so…freakin….low. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! im going to have happies for a long time because of this.